Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in a chasing after the wind's LiveJournal:

[ << Previous 20 ]

Friday, January 12th, 2007
10:05 pm	fuck I've never seen so many stars (and I'm never gonna see em again) I've never known such perfection (and I'm never gonna know it again) I've never felt so alone (and I'm never gonna feel it again) I want to open these veins and never fucking breathe again Because the beauty is dead... (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
12:01 pm	damnit! Thank you for your recent communication. Having thoroughly reviewed your credentials, we have determined that you are unlikely to qualify for Canadian permanent residence under the Federal Skilled Worker Class. This conclusion is based upon our assessment of your qualifications against the six factors under the Canadian selection criteria. I guess under reasons for wanting to immigrate to Canada I shouldn't have put "Attempting to escape the madness of King George II..." (tear it DOWN!)
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
1:25 am	what do you think? so I'm reading this book for my politics of the future class. The author, Paul Virilio is a christian and here's his view of the bible: "What is the bible? It is a book of war. It never stops in the Old Testament. The massacres never stop. Furthermore, this fact has shocked many people, including I'Abbe Pierre and Simone Weil: Joshua has the sun stop its course so as to continue fighting, they turn the shields to blind their attackers- well, it's nothing but war. How is God called in the Old Testament? The God of Armies. I remind you that this same God is my own. It is not only the God of the Jews; it is theirs and mine. It is the same one. There is no other. So what does all this mean? It means that the Bible is the book of the Apocalypse. It means that the apocalypse is happening all the time, everyday, since Genesis. It never stops. Man is the end of the world. That is what it means. Then in the end you have the New Testament, you have Christ, and then you have the Apocalypse. Alles fertig. History is following this same course, there is no doubt about it. Except that science plays a big part in it..." (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, September 14th, 2006
12:53 pm	late reflections on 9/11 and such... I feel so much safer now that thousands of Americans (mostly arab) have had their homes invaded by FBI agents and found themselves in detention centers such as Guantanamo Bay, locked up in solitary confinement in 8' X 8' cells for months and years with no legal representation, no outside contact, and no charges whatsoever filed against them (besides being arab or muslim). I feel safer knowing that local law enforcement agencies arrest people for peacefully protesting the Bush administration, knowing that these police officers have been dressing up in civilian garb and infiltrating peace activists and actually suggesting they use more violent means of protest in order to discredit these groups. I feel safer knowing that if I say something against this administration in the presence of the wrong company, I may be hand-cuffed and brought in for questioning, or strip-searched in public at an airport because of my views. I feel safer knowing that after 9/11 private airlines were secretly contracted to deport hundreds of arab and muslim immigrants (who fled to the US for political asylum) back to their countries of origin, where many of them were arrested, tortured, and murdered upon arrival. I feel safer knowing that the US Constitution and the Bill of Rights therein don't really apply anymore, and we no longer need to bother with the Geneva Convention or International Law anymore. I feel safer knowing that I could potentially be arrested for posting this very entry... Are we really the "freest nation on earth" anymore??? Fuck this bullshit "war on terror" Fuck every member of the Bush administration Fuck "national security" Fuck Guantanamo Bay Fuck anyone who supports these policies and if Bush is truly a christian, then Fuck christianity as well Current Mood: pissed the fuck off (3 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
3:41 pm	So school is back in swing. This is my last semester. FINALLY. I'm set to graduate winter '07 so like in january I guess. I can't wait to find a job outside of the restaurant business, even if it is some lame 9-5 for a little while before grad school. I've been getting weekends off of work on sat/sun which is awesome because Paula's only off on weekends. We went sailing this weekend with my roommates and friends. It's definitely fun having friends with money and cool toys... I think I may be in Morro Bay this weekend at Danny's beach house, so I may be calling some of you kiddies up if I'm in the area roommates(-maceo+cameron) me and my new lady Captian Kai with my girlfriend's hair in the way (tear it DOWN!)
Sunday, August 13th, 2006
1:16 pm	been too long since I've updated this this thing, so let's see... WWIII is looming and I say release the nukes! there isn't going to be any peace until somebody wins and somebody loses, permanently it would seem. That's all I'm gonna say about politics. Our household is gonna be a lot more boring this year. Rob is starting his career with Northrop Grumman, hell froze over and Mace got a job, I'm working more at night now, and Chris will hopefully have a teaching job this fall. we're all growing up I guess. I'm thinking about cramming 16 units and getting graduation over with so that if I want to pick up and move or something I can do it after december. It's been a great summer. lots of drinking, surfing, sailing, and good times with friends. one of the funnest summers I've had in a while actually. Been seeing an amazing girl (Paula) from Carlsbad whom I met while checking out grad school in Monterey. I really want to go camping with her and anyone else who wants to go before school starts, so if anyone's thinking about a trip at, say, the end of august... I miss everyone back home. I really want to go back once more before school starts. Paula's 91-year old grandma died this morning out of nowhere and I'm scared the same thing could just as easily happen to mine. I definitely want to see her soon too. I took a "religion test" online and apparently I'm "orthodox quaker." haha stupid online tests What religion are you? http://www.beliefnet.com/story/76/story_7665_1.html (2 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
1:28 am	umm... maybe it's just me, but while watching John Stewart interview John McCain, I have officially lost all hope in our political system. He asks extremely intelligent and challenging questions, which are met with complete bullshit, pussy-footing answers that do nothing to answer the question. On another note, I have a new job at a brand new restaurant opening in Newport Beach August 1st called Blue Coral. It's fine dining sea food and the restaurant is amazing. over 70 different vodkas and 230 wines we sell. Also, I recently visited monterey bay to check out a grad school and met a really cool girl who lives in socal. we went on a beach date yesterday in Laguna Beach. What can I say? I dig skinny blonde chicks who want to go to grad school for non-proliferation studies, don't wear make-up, love wine and are learning how to surf while attending a quaker church with their mom. Round two this weekend... we shall see. crap, Lewis Black is on, gotta jet... www.bluecoralseafood.com Check it out! (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
12:26 am	another missing him post... man, you could always count on him for a raucous but intelligent political debate, or an introduction to some new band and he'd always be there to agree with me about something that most people would consider totally fucked up and offensive I wish I'd had more time to spend with him talking about how fucked up the world system is and how it needs changing. it's so hard these days to find other people who see the world for what it is, who understand the complex issues surrounding modern life and global issues and such we could have started the revolution together... Current Music: wish I still had Background Music (tear it DOWN!)
Sunday, June 4th, 2006
1:30 pm	what a week... probably one of my best trips back home this past week, followed by an amazing hike in Yosemite to the top of half dome, directly followed by terrible news of an old friend's death... (I don't know what else to say about it) (2 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
3:07 am	my studies these past two years have opened my eyes to the countless horrors and injustices of this world I live in and I want nothing more than to have them shut tight again but like a car crash on the highway, I cannot keep myself from staring (tear it DOWN!)
Friday, May 19th, 2006
10:04 pm	fuck you america We call upon god for which killing's permitted, and then brag out loud that our side made the grade We better pray, with this as our position Our wrongs don't come back and burn us down to the ground And what gives us the right to judge without reprisal To strike retaliation and wash our hands of blood And who gave us the crown to claim that we're divine Without needing repentance and drive them into hell (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)
Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
3:54 am	long beach is quieter than I've ever heard it tonight the only sound the crackle from a burning clove thoughts drift in and out: what am I doing? interruption from an electric buzz as a circuit is completed why am I awake at 4am? winding down from bartending a stressful banquet of corporate elites whose casual half-drunk remarks send my manager scurrying to satisfy Where am I going? to sleep...................... (4 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, March 16th, 2006
3:49 pm	Why does livejournal now look like myspace? So my classes have been extremely interesting this semester, but in a rather depressing way. Ecclesiastes says, "...the more knowledge, the more grief" and it's so true. What I've learned: Despite all the freedom, progress, equality, and prosperity promised to us by the ideals of modernity, in the end, none of us are actually free. We are in fact living inside a panopticon, a structure somewhat like a circular prison in the middle of which is a huge guard tower. We are in individual cells, isolated and cut off from everyone else (individualism) and our cells are closed off except for the one wall which faces the guard tower. The tower is full of tinted windows so at all times we can be seen, but we can never tell if we're actually being watched, but we behave (ie work, obey laws, follow societal norms) because we are convinced we might be watched at all times. This power structure of which we are all a part exists solely for the purpose of increasing productivity and perpetuating capitalism which is being spread across the globe in the form of what we call globalization which is completely fucking over the entire developing world to the benefit of the core countries (US, Europe, the "West") and the corporations which control them (and us). In other words the new world system that has come out of modernity has produced neither freedom, nor equality, nor progress (assuming happiness has anything to do with progress). And what's more, there is no way out... (tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
4:56 pm	I am so blessed, I don't even understand why... like just when I swear I've all but turned my back on God in so many ways, He still like makes His presence known. just today, I'm talking with Jeff, a fellow bartender at Cheesecake Factory who I swear used to like hate me when I first started, and I talk about how I'm not sure if they'll let me transfer to the new store opening in June in Huntington. Jeff says "hey, don't even worry about that (jeff also works with corporate); not only will I make sure you transfer, I'll make sure you have your pick of whatever schedule you want. All I have to do is go to the VP and say 'I back this guy (me) 100%' and you're in..." How crazy is that? it was crazy to begin with that I even got the job I have with the little experience I had, but to have Jeff say he supports me like that is just amazing. In other news, school is kicking my ass. I got by the first half of this semester screwing around, not going to class and not reading. but now I actually have to start writing like one to two papers every week plus mid-terms are coming up so I have to actually start doing stuff... anyway, I have more philisophical crap to ramble about, but I'll write that later Current Music: Q and not U- air conditions (tear it DOWN!)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
6:50 pm	pics from the weekend... At the Moresco's beach house with Janelle... Up near Big Sur... Rainbow in Cambria (3 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
1:03 am	already missing home... for the first time in almost a year, I'm not happier to be back in Long Beach. Too many people I didn't get to see, not enough time spent with those I did see... (2 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, February 16th, 2006
4:48 pm	ok, so my girlfriend completely out-did me for Valentine's day... she was somewhat intoxicated the other week and told me how we were going to keep it way low-key and how she was just getting me like a candle for my room, so I in turn just bought her something very small and chill, spending under $20. Then she gives me my present and it's a pair of brand new Spy sunglasses, the lowest price for which is about $65! what the crap? ok ladies out there, how does a guy make up for such a discrepancy? (2 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
5:50 pm	update for real... at the recomendation of a friend, I have bought myself a pack of tampons, though I am still perplexed as to how they work... So I probably shouldn't have gotten out of bed this morning, because no more than ten minutes after leaving the house, I find out my clutch needs new cylinders which will cost me about $300, and as I'm on the phone with my mechanic discussing this after parking in Seal Beach, a cop comes up to my window and gives me a ticket because I turned and parked in an angled parking spot on the left side of the road, crossing the sacred double yellow line to do so. Apparently people have been complaining to the mayor, he explained, that people have been whipping in and out of these parking spots and such and something should be done, so he is charged with the task of regulating this grievous crime. Awesome, that's a $550 morning and I hadn't even paid for my breakfast burrito yet! On a happier note, I went flying sunday afternoon with my roommate and his pilot friend. We rented a little Cessna and flew out to Catalina, landed on the tiny little airstrip on top of a cliff and ate turkey tacos at the little grill there. Tons of fun and it cost very little! Catalina is sooo peaceful. There was like nothing and no one around, no traffic noise, no helicopters overhead, and Los Angeles looks so far away... Here's some pics our trusty plane that can only carry like 620 lbs of people Our pilot, YoHey (spelling? that's how you say it anyways...) airport lunch stop in catalina Palos Verdes and the South Bay (5 broken backs | tear it DOWN!)
1:45 am	screw livejournal... I haven't been posting in ages because LJ kept harassing me about my password, forcing me to change it, not accepting what I change it to because it's too easy to guess or something... what the piss?! Livejournal is pickier about what password you choose than my bank and credit card websites. just how much does anybody really care about hacking into someone's livejournal???? On another note, Valentine's Day sucked. I didn't even get to see my girlfriend once. Instead I went to school and sat through ridiculous "lectures," then went to work until 1am. oh well, we're going out tomorrow night. I'll post more later (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
12:43 am	ugh, feeling seriously disgusted with some of the people I half-way associate with and used to be good friends with... feeling sad for others; happy for where I'm at but so sad for how others have changed... feeling extremely lucky and blessed to be where I am: living where I do, having the job I have, the future that awaits... wondering how it is that I'm not the one starving in africa, begging in the streets, huffing random household products, screwing prostitutes thank you God (1 broken back | tear it DOWN!)